I wanted it bigger and better.
I wanted him to beg though-
I wanted him forever.
I was losing sleep though.
It had me saying hail Mary
Cause he was haunting my shadow.
It wasn’t a love that I wanted to rush.
I wanted to let it saturate.
I wanted him to remember me
Even when apart
And if my own heart wasn’t betraying me.
If he could fall in love- if it was meant to be-
He would find me.
He could chase me like he was a soulmate.
So I tricked him. I wanted him to recollect
Breathing life back into me.
Left like we had unfinished business from a past life.
I wanted him not to be able to let me go.
We were playing mind games.
The darkness started to take over.
His presence that was turning up
The balance I was hanging onto.
I started tip toeing. I knew it was off.
Off balance. Holding onto the edge-
I wanted to see- eyes wide open-
Only to find I didn’t like what I saw.